It means, no matter how hard I might try to look like a guy, there will always be a hint of androgyny about it..
I wielded brushes and did my very best to transform myself into someone who looked a bit more male than usual...
It's always interesting when you do makeup in a transformative way - I have been looking at myself in the mirror and I don't quite recognise myself. I am not sure if I like this look or not.. I think I achieved my aim but I find this new face troubling, not entirely pleasant.
I wonder if it is because we hear so much pressure around us to confirm to a certain gender's stereotypes. The ideas of gender in mainstream society are so rigid - you get lumped into one box or another at birth and then you're expect to comply with all sorts of things.
I donned a singlet, a pair of suspenders and a fedora hat, and flipped my hair to make a fringe.
If you want to see how this transformation occurred from start to finish, then check out my video, linked below.
Of course if I was going to look like a guy, I also wanted to smell like one, so I took advantage of the opportunity to try out something that landed on my doorstep the other day - a set of Designer Imposters Men's Fragrance Deodorant Spray.
I tried "Macscolino" (It seemed appropriate) which is meant to be a copy of Giorgio Armani's Aqua Di Gio - one of my favourite men's perfumes. I have to say while it's not exactly the same it certianly hits some of the same notes, and at about $4 a can is certianly a more affordable indulgence than the real thing!
All in all this was an interesting experiment that inspired a lot of reflection on my part - mostly about how arbitary our ideas about gender really are.
It'd be fun to be a boy for a day, but I'm not sure I'd want it for much longer than that - I found myself eager to scrub this off and be "myself" again.
Sometimes it's fun to play outside your assigned gender box through, perhaps it's something we should all try a bit more often, maybe, just maybe we'd find those ridgid boxes really weren't so defining after all.
Be sure to check out the other Aussie Curves participants and their "Androgynous" looks below!