In short - when you write a blog like this, you're demonstrating day after day that you're prepared to be vulnerable.
When you're an "Inbetweenie" - someone who is plus sized and also can fit into some straight-sized stuff, like me, and you choose to blog about clothes and makeup, you cop it from both sides too - the straight-sized fashion bloggers criticize you for being fat. and the "radical fat activist bloggers" criticize you for not being radical enough, not being fat enough, and for daring to blog about clothes and makeup instead of what they see as the "real" issues. Not to mention as someone who's not "fat enough" you're taking well deserved attention away from those who feel they deserve it more. It's ugly out there, sometimes!!
I can take the criticism, the torrent of hate - because my self esteem is pretty rock solid. It's been hard won and I have my shaky days like anyone - but there's nothing a stranger on the Internet can say to upset me any more, I've heard it all (no, trolls, that's not a challenge). It comes down to the old adage "Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
I have a pretty amazing life. I have incredible people in my life who love me, and accept me unconditionally - and when you have enough of that going on you don't really get too shaken up by what people who don't actually really know you choose to think about you. There's very few people on this planet who actually, really know me - and that's how I like it.
More importantly - I like myself. Totally separate from the daily dose of love and validation I get from the people around me, I also am living a life in line with my own values. I look myself in the eyes in the mirror every morning and know I am doing the very best I can to be a good person - I sleep well at night.
Here's a small part of my support crew right here.
These photos were taken on Father's Day - we had planned to go kayaking but high winds made that impossible, instead we just romped on the beach, soaking up the first taste of spring and the sea air. As you can probably tell I am not wearing a single scrap of makeup and the wind is playing havoc with my hair. Not glam at all, but truly, I don't care.